Phoenix Woman - Lotus Woman

First and foremost: You’re not broken!

No matter what you go through right now, you’re most likely in your Ash & Mud-Phase! It could feel like silently lurking frustration or being burnt out from giving care to children, an ill family member -or practically everyone but yourself! It could feel like being depleted from overworking and trying to function in a work environment designed for masculine energy systems… It could feel like hitting a road block of exhaustion from raising children, building a career or going through a divorce right now. Or it could present as deep sadness and a feeling of emptiness when your grown kids leave the nest. 

If you’re here, you’re probably in „Midlife“. My definition of the term is quite liberal as in „the-mid-of-life“. This means, that a) you‘re an adult and b) you’re alive! I’m not making fun, I’m just trying to counteract the way Midlife is judged and stigmatised by our society which is obsessed with youth. („Youth“ consequently being the phase in life where you are alive but not yet an adult. -Welcome to my world :))

Midlife then is NOT a time of crisis, it is a time of choice, of reinvention and of doubling down on your authentic self. The reason why it seems so much like a crisis to so many of us, is that we make our earliest life choices mostly based on external validation and social programming. As we grow and learn, we then feel parts of ourselves suffering from inauthentic choices we‘ve made or versions of ourselves we‘ve outgrown. 

It‘s time to upgrade! A Phoenix only rises after it‘s burned down everything outdated to ashes. A Lotus only blooms after it‘s grown through the mud. One a fire-being, the other a water-being, they both are symbols for the two energies within every living being: The masculine and the feminine energy. If we want to rise, we need to find a good balance of both, so we don‘t get stuck in the mud and we don‘t burn down more than is ready to leave our life.

Both energies require movement to help us leave the stagnant phase and grow towards our next version of life. Movement very literally, for the body holds the old patterns and through movement both physical and philosophical, we can start to create a new path. Through my own story, what I‘ve found is a path to move from survival to sensuality, to reclaim the body and to rebirth life.